Very upset today ='(
Again... heart beating faster than usual and feeling pain!!!
this was just so unexpected.
Usually, nomatter how much of beer I drank, I never felt that way before.
But today, It's totally different story.
Drank not even a glass of teh tarik at Chawan den went to the Talk.
At 1st , I don't really feel that anythimg different.. just playing around with others, drink abit beer n having fun there.
But later on, heart started beating faster n abit hard to breath.
Guess this happened becoz of the Teh Tarik !!!
Really hv to say no to coffee n tea from now on!!
Omg, I hate that feeling so so so much.
Long time din really happen n seriously I never expected that It'll happen tonight.
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Don't want him to drink so much,
so..... i rather drink myself...
and well, it's fair for game too if i drink it myself..
I really hv to gv myself a big clap that heart feeling pain n started hard to breath d, I still can act like ntg happen n smile in front of people.
Call me God please!!
I told him I don't wanna back home earlier, but nvr told him the real reason,
somemore told him some stupid things like, I don't wanna return coz i wanna be with him more n miss him so much...
Wish that he was by my side when I really needed him but I don't want him to worry about me.. damn contracdictory..
Suffering in pain n hard to breath, I just can't control my temper, simply fatt peii heii, shouted on him..
yet, when he drove fast, I really felt scared n more suffer.
haizzzzzz.. Anyway , it's all my fault n I'm sorry for everything.
Called some friends in car..
n all of them going night club..
i was like ' grrrrr, Wadafuq????'
Luckily one of my confo's friend is free,
ngam ngam back from club, waited me at pool side.
Once i reached condo, straight away 'fly' to meet her n asked her bring me to the clinic that I used to go.
As usual, pumpep oxygen and one injection.
aikszzzz........
I don't meant to argue or fatt peii heii with you..
I really wish that u can be with me when things happened but I don't want you to worry about me.. so that I was wondering should I tell u or not while I was in your car.
But now, since u don't wanna reply any single message, don't wanna ans my call, n even off your hp,
I think, I don't need to tell you anymore.
='(
