Stress

Stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so stress this recently..
many things happen around me..
( about my relationship, my study, my friendship, my free time and so on)

From young till now, i really got many many , uncountable friends,
but, when you ask me " who is your Best Friend?"
my answer will be "NO, i don't have any best friend."
Why is this happen ? it's impossible right?
haiz.......
from young, my parents seldom let me outing with friend,
eventhough they allowed , i also need to arrive home before 12am..
People around me keep laughing at me, calling me "cinderella"..
Do they think about how's my feeling when i heard that, Do my parents think about i actually need friends?
I'm always alone, playing handphone's games in room, lying on bed all the day..
Can you imagine how was my life last time?
After i study college, i feel better than previous,
yet, i don't have any Best Friend untill now.
I got many friends in college and "multi-races"..
but, friends and Best Friend is totally different.
I need a intimate friend that can share with me, listen to me, and accompany me..
A friend that can be with me forever..
just like Sister, Brother ............
I'm always alone, and i feel so boring to being alone anymore..
I feel so stress this recently but i can do nothing, no one i can speak to , no one i can talk to..
I cry almost everynight before sleeping..
sometimes i feel so lonely and scared to stay alone, especially in raining night..
What can i do? What should i do?
I'm so lost now..... Damn moody now..................haiz...

DOWN DOWN DOWN :'(

Love CH

Didn't update my blog for months d..
Many things happen this recently, and i almost quit clubbing ..
My life is so so so diffenrent compared to previous..
Everything change after my 18th birthday..
A unforgetable 18 birthday..



I was awake and i found that i was so stupid for being upset and care so much for someone last time..
(A guy that really not worth it..)
I did my best for him but what i get? NOTHING..
I feel so rejoice that I'm not with him now..
And luckily he dumb me..





After 18th birthday, everything is over..
Started my 18th with a guy that really LOVE me dearly..


Never expect that we will get together, never expect that he is the one, never expect that he will be my lovest..
Feel so weird for our starting..
From "Best Friend" to Couple...it's really a long run..
Knew him for years, never thought that he is such loving and caring boyfriend..
Really appreciate all the time when he is with me.. >
Just 2 months+,I wonder why I love him so much, just to love him, care him, share my everything with him without any reason..
Hope it will be forever.. Love forever, stay forever,together with him forever..



-There is always a BUT in everything-
A love should be preserve by both sides but not only me..

"Keep silence doesn't mean that I agree with you but just to prevent argue..you never care about my feelings, never know that it will make me sad..
I'm always the one who compromise.. Why? Why not you?
You have the authority to angry or displeased. How about me?
I just can say nothing.. I don't even have chance to express that i'm angry or else..
Even if i'm angry, do you ever care about it???
I'm trying my best to hide all my feelings, just to make you happy.. yet, do you know that?
For you, it's just all my fault and i'm just wilful and childish..
I listen to you, try to change all my attitude that you dislike..it's just because i really love you..
I don't want anything , just hope that you can be my side when i need you..
Hope that you will be with me forever.. Hope that you can understand me..
What you did sometimes really hurt me and make me cry.. yet,you never notice about that..
You are my lovest but you are also the one who make me sad"

你知道我是爱你的
但是那又怎么样呢
难到你就可以利用我的舍不得
反复把我伤得透彻
我知道你是爱我的
但是那又怎么样呢
难到我就该对你无止尽的宽赦
任你把爱情变成负荷

Hope Everything Will Be Fine.... Miss Him.....

:'(

Damn tired this few days!!!
started my a-level on this monday d..
Got to study harder n harder d~
hehe^^ hope can get good results...
hey guys, plz dun owez jio me out d~
if not..................................hahahahaha

Finally, my mind came back to normal d~
everything is fine now~
I was awake after i know everything~
get myself off from sad n abnormal life..
You can't even know how stupid was I , chose to believe sumone that lay me a lie from beginning!
I had removed the "L" word from L.O.V.E.R and now it's all OVER..

now, hv to concentrate on study n put more effort on piano d!!
Carmen, cheers up!!
UK is waiting for you!!!! hahaha.. (dreaming)
know many new friends in A-level...
n all the senior........... so lengzai....
y my intake de so...................... summore malay the most!!
aizx~~ i should go for march intake ma...
(regret-ing~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~)
wakakaz....jkjk....

nothing to do here, bored..
everyday juz study, revision, movie.........................
gonna move to OUG soon..
hope can hv more fun there...
fat d this recently, wanna diet d...
any friends around HELP can jio me out for sport or exercise la...
hehe^^ take care all my lovely friends..

Nichii Time

..Love NiChii..

almost everyweek i go Nichii once~~

atleast once~

dunnoe y... juz like the design of Nichii clothes, specs n so on~`

the price is really reasonable for students~~

one weekk atleast one cloth from Nichii~`

Now.. all my cupboard full of Nichii clothes d~~

lol~~

my fren owez kidding n ask me to apply to be the advertisement Nichii spokesman~

wakakaz~~~

dis is all the pic dat i took in Nichii~

CaRMeN intro in French

Mon nom est Carmen.
J'ai dix huit ans cette année.
Je vis en Malaisie.
J'aime le piano.
Comment vas tu?
Peux.je être ton amie..

haha... CaRMen is learning French..

Blood Donation

Super Boring Day

Haiz...

Damn Boring 2day..


dunnoe wat to do... n ntg to do...
went shopping vif my dad but buy ntg...
sienz dao~~~~~~~~~~~~
miss sum one else...
miss my piano very much~~~
argh~~~ long time din play d..
(a piano dat folo me up about 10 years d)
play it everyday but now..................
haiz.... i got no chance to play d....
if can bring it to KL, damn good la...
hope my daddy buy me a keyboard in future..
wakakaz....
2day went to YAMAHA shop...
saw a multipurpose keyboard...
damn yeng man!!!
4get to take pic... sayang la...
1k sumthing nia....
my dad still considering..... maybe will buy it n let me bring it to KL...
woohoo~~~ so "qi dai"......
Long will back on dis sunday....
dunnoe will come KL find me mou...
haiz....
thought KL will be more interesting dat Banting, but............ damn damn damn boring here..
wat the hell all my frenz doing?
y still dun1 start study?
can come study HELP mou?
feel lonely here...
maybe 1 day , will die silently in room...
dun 4get wat i owez tell :
>white colour coffin
>white colour merc as coffin car
>white roses
>no josstick at all
>white candle beside coffin
>Jay chou's band along
>all comers vif formal wear
>n burn me a paper petrol station (all ppl juz burn car for those death ppl, but not p,station, >where to gasoline?)haha ... time to earn money d...lol
>so on.......................... dunnoe wat d... 4get else...haha
crazy.... carmen .... u r crazy....... boring till sot d...
haha....


blood donation in Banting 2moro...
gonna go to help....
hv to wear green T mie?
i dun hv lerh..
dun care la..
juz cincai wear a T-shirt can d...
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala..
hope can reach residence earlier..
wanna go supper vif frenz...